Social anxiety disorder

“I have been….”

Shift + Delete which shutting people out of my small world,

Putting firewall 7 layers to anyone that trying to let themselves in,

Putting an End to stop people from completing their sentences,

Very paranoid to anyone which is trying to be nice to me?

Hurting people without any apparent reason,

Receiving subliminal msgs from my heart  that reminds me what might happen if I open up,

Told that I’m just making it harder on myself by

keeping everyone away with my coldness,

Pulling myself apart trying to find a better life,

In and out of love,

Expecting that u have a plan for me in near future,

Trusting my senses that I know you can fix me.

Hurt and sad inside,

Telling myself, I know you will make that all go away.

I don’t hate them,

I’m just not ready to let them in.