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ms.nerd vs ms.geek

ok it kills. i need to type this.

First day, being ms.nerd at work.

mr XXX:

u look different.. way too different..

cam bdak lepasan university

rase cam nak cubit2 n cium2 jer la..

jgn selalu pakai mata kaca..

nnt konsentrasi terganggu

ol skul..

cikgu murni..

 

mr YYY:

wahh, besarnye spek.

 

mr ZZZ:

y ur eyes look smaller yaa??

Normally I tot people who wear lens the eyes look smaller or the other way round??

 

mr aaa:

Macam pernah tgk la..(kdai mkn at HP)

 

Mr bbb:

Nampak macam datin, u mcm ni..

 

Mr ccc:

Keep giggling and asking what color are my eyes..

 

Mr ddd:

U look like a librarian..

 

Sigh!

 

Don’t swear! 

I promised to myself every single day not to swear. And the worst part is, I do not succeed to do so. Sigh! Like last Saturday, the word p***** accidentally came out of my mouth when the car hit a big hole. Opps. I bet my mum don’t hear that. I just act like no one hears me at that time. And that very moment, i'm hoping my mum won’t start to nag about me giving bad examples to my sisters. And this morning, I was alright driving slow n steady eventho the clock was like shouting at me “drive fast, u need to reach office now”. I followed the traffic with patience and noted to self that I should be careful of the motorcyclist. Minutes passed and next thing I know I just spill out the ‘p’ word to one of the helpless driver who thinks she owns the road. Sigh! I should blame this swearing thingy as it started when I drove back n forth to Bangi those days…hmmph. Even i learn Cantonese words "bad words" from my colleagues quicker than i read the language dictionary. Guys, stop it pleash. Dont make it till i can converse with all those words tht ive learned okayy :P

 
I will try to make an effort on no cursing – swearing thingy. Hmmph..

 
Thanks for your effort which added to my swearing activity today..

do i look like a teacher/nerdy?? ;P

I know what i want but i'm not sure about u..

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
You made room for me but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well,
but you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry

Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I'm trying to let you hear me as I am

I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's
Make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I'm gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you'll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
'cause I believe there's a way you can love me
Because I say

I won't write you a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this

Is that why you wanted a love song
'cause you asked for it
'cause you need one, you see
I'm not gonna write you a love song
'cause you tell me it's make or break in this
If you're on your way
I'm not gonna write you to stay

If your heart is nowhere in it
I don't want it for a minute
Babe, I'll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There's a reason to
Write you a love song today

                                       

Sarah Bareilles - Love Song Vclip

nu more i love you since..

Achievements:

Tuesday - Went to watch muvee, Made of Honor(super romantic n bunge2 lps tgk) with Ms SweetHeart and had a splendid dinner at Sushi Groove where we eat till the waiters shuuu' us :P

this is what i eat..myself alone. Ms SweetHeart on diet nway ;) Sgt sedap. Sushi for beginner even the Wasabi not that hot. RM25.90 including Ocha(Green Tea)

masing2 muke penat. Elis baru je exam. Myself baru lek keje.

Wednesday - Attended GSS Village Meeting as Global Vice President in town. Guess what, I received an appreciation gift for month of June employee achievement during the meeting aswell.  I got myself a mug ;) not an ordinary mug, it comes with the company label printed on top. I tot i was going to get an ipod actually. hahaha ;P nyway, im honoured to have it. peace*

Later that night, we had a dinner with the big bosses at PJ Hilton. 3 sec engineer, 1 solution architect and another 5 were the big shoots. Oh ya, im the only lady. im blushing all way thru but i finished my food. i dun like to waste. hahaha. Everyone were being very gentlemen..ohhh im so touched ;) Reached home around 11pm.

Thursday - In the morning went to cyberjaya for a meeting with customers + their vendor. I arrived early since i planned to have a lunch with Ms Dha Da Vogue and yes we did. Even we bumped to Mr Carlos(hikhik). The food was good, but the serving part not that great. We waited like 30mins for our drinks while eating. But, we still enjoy chit chatting, gossiping n etc. Thanks for the treat dear!

Went to ATM n wondering what goes wrong as i saw balance stated in the receipt. Hmm. Reached home early after the activity, quite dizzy mayb bcoz of the weather. Im just done eating as Mr SweetnFierce brought some food' to eat.

I want to sleep now...zzzZzz..Tomorrow i might be having dinner with the vendor. I really hope u have a plan on us this.

how does he knows, u love him..

i my new spec..soo miss nerd~ ;P
i my good progress with the project/work
i when my dad super duper happy with his bday pressie
i when i managed to make my youngest sister happy with my make up touch' for her date.
i facebook where i can feed louis and play parking war ;)
i   music, i love my new phone! thx dear~~
i that botak' guy n my girls :P
i to eat sushi, tomyam n ice cream a lot
i to watch movie in cinema/watch together dvd-movie in laptop.. how romantic ;)
i u

misteri sungguh post ni..gedebusshh~! aiyaaakk..

Social anxiety disorder

“I have been….”

Shift + Delete which shutting people out of my small world,

Putting firewall 7 layers to anyone that trying to let themselves in,

Putting an End to stop people from completing their sentences,

Very paranoid to anyone which is trying to be nice to me?

Hurting people without any apparent reason,

Receiving subliminal msgs from my heart  that reminds me what might happen if I open up,

Told that I’m just making it harder on myself by

keeping everyone away with my coldness,

Pulling myself apart trying to find a better life,

In and out of love,

Expecting that u have a plan for me in near future,

Trusting my senses that I know you can fix me.

Hurt and sad inside,

Telling myself, I know you will make that all go away.

I don’t hate them,

I’m just not ready to let them in.

little n fierce

Achievements:
1) Managed to watch kungfu panda, indiana jones and the happening eventho caught with packed schedule. thx yer! muax
2) Meet and catch up story morry with the girls. im likeyy. nant buat lagi ehh. Eventho ade yg bawe parents skali. huhu :p
3) Successfully decrypt amex key n proven the correct process followed. Haa, dont under estimate my knowledge yer org2 amex. Hampeh nyer amex us.
4) Walked into Tiffany & Co boutique without feeling guilt just to see a rm29k diamond ring. Haha. Sungguh lagak richie rich :P
5) Bought balenciaga pumps to match 'dunno which dress' without feeling 'omg, abis duitku'. Hopefully it wont b left on the rack like other shoes/heels. :P
6) Bring bosses including yg mate biru n yg vegetarian to eat nasi ayam kampung nearby Menara. Finallyyy. Nyummy.Nyummy.
7) Escaped from standby on weekend. Pls let me enjoy my weekend. Pleasssh.
8) Ate Nando's to fulfill my 'mengidam' thingy. Klah ibu2 mengandung. Hahaha.

Unplanned:
1) Quarrel with mr and straight went back home.
2) Looking forward for home coming of mr superman. try not to trust my sense that he's acting differently.
3) Loaded with work, work, work to resolve audit issue that spoiled the mood to continue working in the company.

Emm, i shud be proud of my achievements for this week. Second project cut over at cyberjaya will be happening soon = next week. Just pray for the best for now.

psst. this morning i was awaken by a call from mr halfstranger. he keeps asking whether im still sleeping laa, remember him or not laa..lost contact bcos he went overseas laa..he lives near shell laa..we used to exchange house number laa..n trying his best to make me remember who he is..however i just shut him off. who knows if he is a stalker, or perogol bersiri' or what. i just woke up, of course im being sarcastic n hard, right. i called yanti, she described him well..tall, fair, handsome...bla bla bla and i was like screaming, u know y?? bcos he was my pet brother. OMG. i told Elis n my girl frens bout it, abes sume cm..haa tu la, garang sgt knape?? me? just giggled. Known him during i was 13yrs old, how could i possibly remember?? Anyhow,sye malu...

i caught u red handed wearing my lip balm

I think lots of people would be surprised at the amount of men, gay and straight who wear make up - I am one of them! Bronzer, kohl, concealer, tinted lip balm, mascara and even on occasions blusher are all worn by gay and straight men I know.

However, I haven't had anyone give it the slightest attention as being different nor odd. I really see no reason why people cannot express themselves however they desire and expect to be treated equally as well as people who are more conservative.

I suppose it's similar to the cross-dressing/ladies undies threads - at the turn of the last century it was actually against the law in the UK (don't know about the US) for women to wear trousers or men's attire - compare that to now! I know it's not against the law for men to wear women's clothes, simply socially... unusual? (I wouldn't say unacceptable as in some areas, like Malaysia, opps :P it isn't that odd), so why still the prejudice? If a guy wants to express himself that way, let him I say.

Wearing make-up is fun, dramatic, exciting, sexy, something that women have known for years. For me it’s just one of the many ‘femme’ things I do, and I’m proud of it!

Watch this - every man should wear foundation!

Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery, but today is a gift. That is why they call it the present'

            They promise u the skies and stars. Give u hopes n dreams. Somehow,

Words aren’t a guarantee of a wish to be granted or a promise to be kept.

I found this piece of writings while blog hopping. Very well written.
Sometimes things left unsaid.

Dear You,
I love you. But sometimes you get on my nerves, especially nowadays. I never thought I’d ever get tired of understanding why you are the way you are. I guess we all have our bad days. What you said is true - intimacy breeds hatred. Well, I don’t exactly hate you because I could never in a million years hate you.

Honestly, I don’t know what to do with you at the moment. I want to scream but I respect you too much to even give a hint about what I’m feeling.

My love for you will always be. And I hope you know that. I do know that you love me, but if you really do, you have to help yourself and be happy because seeing you happy makes me happy.

Listening to: Duffy - Please Stay

i wish

Last weekend, I had splendid weekend with elis n family. On Saturday, I learnt to eat different type of sushi dishes after a very bad experience with Sunway Management Event. Sigh! Thx to Elis who incredibly can eat sushi with lots of wasabii. whoah. berair mateku bljr mkn nii..Eventho it was my first time to eat at Sakae Sushi but it was gooood! I ordered 'Chicken Kar i dontknowwhat' + Unagi. I met Mr Shrodigger + Dyck aswell.

I was supposed to go to Myloca that night. I was damn afraid to drive alone actually but it was left unspoken to anyone. Luckily, shweet Elis volunteer to accompany me there. We went to pickup Alel aswell. But then, with some experience n knowledge of PR. I managed to make the scheduled activity happened on time while im offsite. This was unplanned. Rentas epki project completed successfully eventho there were some hick ups. Nvm, let the PM to take care. After mamak, we headed towards home around 11pm and had girls talk.  =)

On Sunday went to send Baby back to school. She was looking forward n very much excited. Maybe bcoz she met apple of her heart the night before. Bhuhuhu. I was dizzy so Kakak drive us there. Im going to miss her loud voice. =P

Ok, i want to sleep now. Im really thankful that my baby now successfully migrated, up n running. We ended the concall at 6.15am tht night. Tmr im going to Menara, to prepare for Amex testing. Wish me luck!

Taaa'

psttt...1 w15h 1 c0uld b br4v3 s0 th4t th3 m1s$ p41n w0nt hurt s0 much!

Jangan Tidur Lagi..Jangan Tidur Lagii

ok rase boring nyer kene concall ni. ngn takley nak tido. kene tggu update. pastu nk lyn rindu lagi. pastu tgk jam 2 3 kali, thinking bile nak abes. oh ku busannn. anyone yg blum tido?? ade tak?? suke je nak kacau org :P

Browsing thru LV website makes me much more insane and improved my currency converting skills. The bag that i wanted costs me rm5151. Oh bankrupsiii..

Last Thursday, lunch hour went to TGIF, Curve with Izman and Teo to celebrate my belated bday. How sweett. I ordered Texas Ribeye and Strawberry Suprise. Nyum Nyum. Thanks a lot guys. At least i got one to remember. Erm. Wonder how my bday cake taste like, didnt get the chance to taste them, mcm goreng pisang panas okayy. Ermmm. Teo, where's the TGIF picture pls? blink* blink*

I just read thru my mail and found this. The top five cancer-causing foods and one of it is my fav. Doughnuts, cancer-causing double trouble. First, they are made with white flour, sugar, and hydrogenated oils, then fried at high temperatures. Doughnuts, says expert, may be the worst food you can possibly eat to raise your risk of cancer. ok I promise i will eat more less dougnuts :P 

Curik from post diha.

Have I ever

Kissed a stranger? Of course, never as far as im conscious
Drank bubbles? How about play with bubbles?? .
Ran away from home? Emm, time kecik main2 ade kot.
Liked someone younger? liked, in love, cherished and dated for more than a year. Wonderful.
Broke someone's heart: Finger crossed*
Been arrested: Nop.
Cried when someone died: Yes

- ok tu jer.

Esok?? Ape nak pakai eh? Erm. Bikini? ? Strapless? Larikkk. Haha. Elis jom gi sesamer. Tell ur cousin, my boifen kat Jb. Hahaha. :P Oh ya i need to standby at cyberjaya datacenter also tomorrow.  Boringgg, kene balik awal. Isk

Hey Kat Deluna, thanks for this song. Love Confusion. Its so me in' right now.

Its 5.55am, n im still in this concall with no end. Getting update from the users. Hopefully my baby project successfully migrated tonight. *finger crossed*

psst. Full tank = rm84++ or more, shud i cycle to office?

Love & Ego

Sometimes is for a moment, sometimes is for a lifetime.  Sometimes a moment is a lifetime.'

Once upon a time there was an island,
where all the feelings lived

One day there was a storm in the sea
and the island was about to get drowned.
Every feeling was scared    but made a boat to escape .
Every feeling boarded the boat.
Only 1 feeling was left. got down to see who it was..

It was EGO .

tried and tried but ego   wasn't moving also.
the water was rising.
Every one asked to leave him and come in the boat, but was
made to .
At last all the feelings escape and dies with ego   on the island..


Dies because of EGO !


So, Kill Ego And Save . ....


'Argument wins the situations but loses the person. So when argue with your loved ones, remember that situations is never more important than your loved ones.....'


..its hard when people quit on u but u don't get the chance to explain yourself. The harder u try , much more worse the thing goes but u never want to give up. U just need time..

psst: i was told that petrol will reach up to rm2.70 starting tomorrow, pls go fill up ur car and maybe put some in container. If you have any, give me some okayy...

we could be in love

Favourite Cosmetics Brand?
Benefit - Benetint, Dior - Lip Range, Clarins - Compact  Powder, Estee Lauder -  Mascara

 
Your must-have beauty product?
Facial Wash and Eye Cream

 
Do you like Pink?
I like something colourful too. Anyhow, I did bring my pink pillow aka blanket to Redang. Multi purpose sehh.

 
What's in your Handbag right now?
Purse, House Key, Phone, Makeup Bag, Pink Elseve Serum, Hugo Boss XY

 
How many handbags do you own?
More than 5. Thinking of buying designer’s bag. Look at my cash..Maybe, next month.

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
More than my feet could wear n change.

 
Jeans or Pants?
Jeans

 
Vest top or T-Shirt?
T-Shirt

 
How often do you get your hairdone?
Once every 3 months

 
Favourite Perfume?
The One by Dolce&Gabbana

 
Who is your crush now?
Mr Superman, Faizal Tahir.

 
Heels or Sneakers?
Heels.

 
Smoothies or Latte?
Smoothies

If you won $1000 would you spend it all on clothes, makeup and beautytreatments?
Yes to all and bring my siblings to spa. Oh ya, my mum aswell =)

 
Who do you think is the most stylish female Celebrity?
Sarah Jessica Parker

 
What color is your hair?
Black

 
Eyeliner or Mascara?
Eyeliner. Erm, maybe both

 
Do you pluck/wax your eyebrows?
Yes

 
Do you like having your picture taken?
Yes if im in the mood

 
When you were a little girl, what did you want to be when you grew up?
Stewardess

What do u plan to buy?
Blackberry, LV bag & Levis Lady Style Eye Wear.

What song are you listening to atm?
Pappa Bear Ft. Jan VD Toorn - When the rain begins to fall . OMG, i so missed him right now.

What is the weirdest thing in front of you now?
My lil sister wearing a turtle neck shirt and she looks like a 'cicak albino'. OMG.
We both laughing like hell now :P

What's next?
Off to sleep, n look forward for better day tomorrow. Project Manager + Auditor sgt menunggu sye di ofice. Uwaaa.

..psst. Yesterday i was on MC. Today, car broke down due to flat battery. Anyhow i was saved by mr Stranger. Thx for helping me out. Didnt mean to disturb u. Hopefully my days will be filled up with something to smile on..Can u not go to JB?

sometimes love just aint enough

Now, I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side.
And I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.

 

And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.

 

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.

 

Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.

 

It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

 

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

 

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.

-edit-

Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.

Did it happen when we first kissed..

I’ll never know what brought me here,
As if somebody led my hand,
It seems I hardly had to steer,
My course was planned.
And destiny it guides us all,
And by it’s hand we rise and fall,
But only for a moment,
Time enough to catch our breath again.

                                                                                    

Taking in the times gone by,
We wonder how it all began,
We’ll never know and still we
Try to understand,
And even though the seasons change,
The reasons shall remain the same,
It’s love that keeps us holding on
Till we can see the sun again.

 

 

Is this love a myth
So tell me are you in for this?

R.O.X.Y.S.U.M.M.E.R.S.P.L.A.S.H

got 3 tix to the event yesterday as my sister bought a spaghetti strap and i got myself a pair of flip flop. swweeet!

Indah rasanya bila cinta di-balas dengan cinta... Taken from Teater P Ramlee The Musical 2. Get  2 free tix to watch them yesterday with Baby. So i was driving like a speed racer which took us 45minutes to reach Istana Budaya with such a bad traffic in KL. We were sitting at Stage 1 and sit near to Datin Tiara & Roslan Aziz who's doing the music arrangement for this time round. Marvelous! It gives me a lot of reasons to appreciate the 'play' which the audience was giving standing ovation and a round of applause. I don't know that Emelda Rosmila(Adlin Aman Ramli gf) can sing that well. Anyhow, Im loving it!

 

Main Cast (among others):
Muslee (P Ramlee), Liza Hanim(Saloma), Emelda Rosmila(Azizah), Norizan(Melissa Saila), Atilia(Junaidah), etc

Sex And The City the movie, already in town! Honey, lets go to watch them pleash?

Listening to : Rihanna - Cry